I feel like an Idiot.

You know, most of the time being two minds about everything works out fine. I mean come on it keeps you from havign to turn to someone else for a second opinion. but, you know, it really isn't good when that second opinion isn't one you want.

I mean, I snapped, I was pissed. Over what? That not everyone has their priorities set out in front of them, That people from time to time decide to live their life on impulse? That the 366th day was spent alone?

Yeah, that was it.

The only reason I snapped was because I was greedy, I wanted that day so very very much. The days following I was filled with anger over this little thing, it made me snappy and short with others then they brought it up. I felt stupid, because I did not hear anything for the next days except for a single request for a drive home.
When next we talked, it was me who started it.

I did not even give a chance for anything, but instead ripped into them about the drinking binge they have been on for the past four days. People told me it was the right thing to do, that there is no helping some peopel once they decide to be a lost cause. But, I feel that even though they say this for my best interest I still just want to have a moment every day to hold them in my arms...

Is this a crazy thing to say? That I want to hold them and keep them safe from the world, and from themselves?

All I ask is that people think ahead, myself included.